1. What are your 5 favourite songs right now?
- Everything You're Not Supposed To Be - Melanie Laurent feat. Damien Rice
- Don't Know Why - Norah Jones
- Limit To Your Love - Feist
- Somewhere Not Here - Alpha
- Summer Sun - Koop

2. What is the most played song on iTunes?
- My Name is DOS by Cyndi Seui

3. What song are you listening right now?
- Satellite of Love by The Velvet Underground

4. What was the last album you brought?
- Mian Tiara's The Comfort of My Own Company

5. What was the last gig you went to?
- Can't remember. Not a gig-goer.

6. What song can you not get out of your head?
- Heartbeat by Tahiti80

7. What song do you listen to everyday?
- Whatever Gets You Through The Day by The Radio

8. What was the first album you ever brought?
- I can't remember… it's either Bjork's Volta for $6 or Damien Rice's 9.

9. What was the last single you downloaded?
- Under The Westway by Blur

10. What is your favourite band right now?
- Nothing in particular.. Blur I guess.

11. What is your favourite artist right now?
- Leslie Feist

12. What is your favourite type of music?
- Pop, electronic, a little bit of jazz

13. In your 25 most played songs what is #10?
- Somebody to Love Me by Mark Ronson and The Int'l Business

14. Quote one of your favourite lyrics.
- "out across the endless sea, I will die in ecstasy. But Ill be a bag of bones, driving down the road alone."

15. Do you listen to music everyday?
- No.

 

Questions are from here.

I could never forget that day. That day when a tailless stray cat caressing its body against my legs. That was the moment when I never imagine it to be ye it happened. I heard things I wish I would never hear them but he said it. Things torn apart yet I’m hanging on, still. The only special person who could hurt you so much, yes, that’s the person you love.

I was thinking earlier the day, what if I happened to own a gun with a bullet in it to kill myself. I thought, would I have used it years ago, or would it be today the bullet explodes my head?

The tailless cat was peculiar. The tail was being cut by force, of course, why would a cat wish it tail being cut anyway? The tail used to be the cat’s charisma. It’s gone, but the cat’s life goes on without its tail. Yet, it lost its criteria to be a cat. It was born a cat but it doesn’t have a tail so you can’t say it’s a cat.

I know what you’re trying to do. Carry on. Go on and hurt me as you want. Go on, cut my tail. I’ve already flawed.

Murakami never fails to draw me into the journey of the characters. Pulls me deep into a such melancholia just like he always delineates the characters in his books; lonely, socially awkward, prosaic and ordinarily ‘enough-nothing-more-nothing-less’ life. Yet, always, there are ways to make them into something more that turns plain into riveting just somewhere written between the lines.

I just started reading 1Q84, Murakami’s latest work (already read the first chapter online before the book released, it was on his Facebook page if you noticed) and still in somewhere where the characters still making hypothesis about the causes of obscure and eerie changes in their lives. The book is divided into three volumes and just like Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World, there are two different stories about two different people - Aomame and Tengo - written alternately. For synopsis you may want to google it. 

And I love Tengo. Unusual name and the phrase ‘it takes two to tengo’ (what a bad pun!) crossed my mind all the time. I also love the papers’ softness it’s ridiculously a good kind and weirdly gave me comfort when I touch every single piece of them. Talking about my OCD.

 

1Q84. Q is for ‘question mark’, a world that bears a question.

a quote from few early pages of 1Q84

song by AIR - Talisman

just an old footage when I was in Sempu Island, Malang. Trying to get vintage tone and sorry for the shaky part, didn't bother to edit it. Taken with iPhone 4 and edited in After Effects and finalised in Premiere Pro.

You're the reason for my laughter and my sorrow
Blow out the candle I will burn again tomorrow
No man on earth can stand between my lovin' arms
And no matter how you hurt me, I will love you till I die

I ain't no vision, I am the girl
Who loves you inside and out
Backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out
I love no other way
What are we gonna do if we lose that fire

2011 was sort of a busy year for me. A lot of things I've learned, I found a dream job that I'm going to do in the future, I've met a lot of people from different walks of life - they come and go, some I left and some I keep.

Let's just moving forward, shall we?

Here are my resolutions. Just a few of them.

1. Graduate, get my adv. diploma.
2. Get a job.
3. Less procrastinate, pretty please.
4. Discover more aspects of life. (this really sound very, heavy.)
5. Love life. Be grateful for what I have right now.
6. Do what I love and fuck the rest.

So that is. A little less than the last 2 year ;) and I sound quite mature, no? Oh that reminds me that I'll be no longer a -teen this year. Ha. That's one of the big differences that's going to happen this year (besides the 21-12-2012, haha!).

Well, I expect less.

Anyway. Happy new year 2012, people.

'Did you ever do this, you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble?' - Tom (500 Days of Summer)

December it is, everyone. Two more weeks to christmas and I don't feel so christmas-y at all. I don't know why where's my christmas spirit! So anyway, here's one of my favourite christmas song. Hope you like it!

Happy December!

There is nothing more fun than ranting in your own blog, saying that it’s not for a certain group of people when the fact it is. No, I’m not going to deny anymore because I thought it would be easier for them to receive the message, oh dear ignorant people. Wait. I guess they don’t even know that these...

Never mind. 

I wish I had more courage rather than just ranting in my blog, losing my sanity and the effort I put just go to waste. 

Maybe it’s just my egocentric that rules right now. Oh here it goes the part where I keep on blaming myself; self-destruction. 

And the world is still revolving because some of us really care on who’s to blame and who’s the selfish. Also some of us really are so fucking ignorant that they think they are so fucking right and the world revolves around themselves; and the leftover people are just being too fucking nice to have a lot of mercy to comprehend.

 

Major fuckness.

 

I wish I could be ignorant too. So I don’t have to rant these trashy thoughts of mine. Sanity, sanity.

 

No fuck was given.