you and the night and the music

a gentle reminder

Do you believe in your feelings, especially when you feel very anxious and you would think, 'something bad is going to be happened'?

Well yes, in a certain extent I do believe so. Early this morning (like after 12am till 6am) I did not sleep at all. Usually I go to bed around 4, I went to sleep earlier at around 3 am, closed eyes for 2 hours but I just could not sleep. I had a lot of things in mind which I don't really remember why the hell was I thinking about them at that point of time. 6am. I tried to sleep again. I heard sounds outside my room. Parents probably woke up already. 7am. Mum 'woke' me up. Great.

At those times where I struggled to sleep, an accident happened. I barely knew this girl, we just shook hands a few weeks ago and then now she's gone. I did not remember her face until I opened my friends' facebooks. She was with 2 boys and both are fine. Well. Gone too soon, very soon. Like, *poof!* and when you asked God, 'why? why her?' nobody could ever answer those cause I'd asked many times to God before. But remember:

'for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways are my ways' - book of Isaiah.

I hope that her best friends, family and people who loved her have strength to get through this.

Anyway, most probably at that time I was consuming too much chocolates that able to wake up brain cells and I was consuming coffee in the evening. Well, nobody knows neither myself. So guys, don't eat chocolates especially when you want to sleep earlier and you want to sleep well.

to talk about death, it always reminds me of you. Geez. Just take me away with you I'm so bored right now!

oh dear.
RIP Cynthia Mantero.