Jul 14
Today was your birthday.
I still remember July 15th a year ago, I texted you, on time. Didn't get a reply. But you wrote a comment on my blog post at that day. Your present from one or two years ago which I have not give it to you (well now that I cant), I believe, still inside my cupboard. I don't know what to do with that. I don't want to throw it, I don't even want to touch it. I want it to be there and maybe someday it'll be gone without me realising it. Yeah, impossible.
Anyway, though your age stopped at 29 but well, 30 years ago you were born today. Just a reminder that everyone still and always remember you. I wished you the best of all the best, as usual. I wished you won't forget me, too.
To my dearest. Best friend, lover, teacher too, and everything. I missed you to bits.
Jun 16
I'm way too busy to clean up my room.
May 14
Hello, it's been awhile! I should have write something more personal here, if that is what you want. Heeeee. So I've been busy with school and assignments, I enjoy being busy and tortured with assignments to be honest. Yes I'm a masochist, mentally. K, let's go back to the topic. I don't really know what should I write here hahaha. You know you should follow me on twitter if you have one. My twitter is always updated daily and it's not private anymore, and I hope you're happy enough with that ;p
Well as you know, I didn't study in neither Netherlands and other countries I've mentioned (and I wanted to, sigh!). Simply because I have to take either A-levels or Indonesian national exams if I want to study there. The easier way is to take the national exams here in Indonesia. But there are some problems that I can't take the exam. I didn't take Biology and the mathematics I learned in secondary school did not cover all 'cause I took E-maths not A-maths. So it's like... errrrr. I have to study again and more. I don't mind study again but the time was just not right. I was just having my O-levels and then study again for national exam? Hell no :p So I decided not to take the exam, though with the certificate I could go to local universities and yes, other countries. And by the way I heard that my frrrriend Betharia will be taking her exam next month, so all the best! (and suddenly, I recall when we studied together for O-levels, hehe)
Still don't know whether I'm going to other countries to study or not. I like to live here in my hometown but I hate it when I have to live under the same roof with my parents and brothers. It's not that I hate them. I hate being pampered, I used to live independently and now it's like I'm forced to depend most of things on my parents (Wait, take note that I don't have maids here, thanks). Sigh. And seriously how I hate to live in such inconvenience country (well, no further explain about it :p). Don't know how to put it in words. I just wish I could study overseas again and be on my own. Sometimes I feel much younger than usual. LOL. Especially when I hang out with my junior high school friends, sometimes I think they're still the same like they used to be. BUT HEYYYY they're now graduated from senior high school already. See how time flies. People like me, who don't see you in years are the one who can see whether you've changed or not ;)
taken a month ago I guess. Just to fill this blog post so it doesn't look so wordy. ;p
So I believe that this blog post should be categorised to 'heart-to-heart'. Haha. Just being general. Did I forget to warn you that this is not all-lovey-dovey blog? ;p
Apr 12
Hello! How was your first day in poly? or college like me? Hehehe.. My day was quite fine, but still my sleep time is messed up so I ended up felt a bit sleepy in class.
Sooo on last Saturday (till Sunday) I went to Jakarta for erm (thinking of other things.. for 10 sec here) sort of hunting photo session with my mum's school alumni, guided by certified photographer. Well I learned a lot and totally worth it! The session was conducted at Kota Tua, me went WOW alot, the place reminded me of Jalan Karet, Jalan Gula, House of Sampoerna area there in Surabaya. Too bad Surabaya's Kota Tua is likely an area for storehouses (? if I'm not wrong :p).
After the session I went to PIM, with my very fugly condition. Oily face, messy hair, sweaty, smelly.. ew! and I went there to Tweet-Up with @disasterhead and @pico. Both are totally the same as what they tweet (eh?) and as what his alter-ego's tweet *cough* DUH sorry for making 'doesn't-make-sense' sentences! Well I guess the phrase 'you are what you tweet' is true. :p But guess what I didn't meet up with my two bestfriends there, Betharia and Melivia. THANKS AH!!!! Hehehehe just kidding. Now I just hoping that we could go to Singapore in June together! *cross fingers*
BLAHBLAHBLAH! Here are some... behind the scene photos :)
and these taken by meeeeee. More at my flickr account : http://flickr.com/photos/lifeinmono :)
Have a nice day people.
Feb 6
Do you believe in your feelings, especially when you feel very anxious and you would think, 'something bad is going to be happened'?
Well yes, in a certain extent I do believe so. Early this morning (like after 12am till 6am) I did not sleep at all. Usually I go to bed around 4, I went to sleep earlier at around 3 am, closed eyes for 2 hours but I just could not sleep. I had a lot of things in mind which I don't really remember why the hell was I thinking about them at that point of time. 6am. I tried to sleep again. I heard sounds outside my room. Parents probably woke up already. 7am. Mum 'woke' me up. Great.
At those times where I struggled to sleep, an accident happened. I barely knew this girl, we just shook hands a few weeks ago and then now she's gone. I did not remember her face until I opened my friends' facebooks. She was with 2 boys and both are fine. Well. Gone too soon, very soon. Like, *poof!* and when you asked God, 'why? why her?' nobody could ever answer those cause I'd asked many times to God before. But remember:
'for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways are my ways' - book of Isaiah.
I hope that her best friends, family and people who loved her have strength to get through this.
Anyway, most probably at that time I was consuming too much chocolates that able to wake up brain cells and I was consuming coffee in the evening. Well, nobody knows neither myself. So guys, don't eat chocolates especially when you want to sleep earlier and you want to sleep well.
to talk about death, it always reminds me of you. Geez. Just take me away with you I'm so bored right now!
oh dear.
RIP Cynthia Mantero.
Feb 3
“Pooh, promise you won’t forget about me, ever. Not even when I’m a hundred.”
“How old shall I be then?”
“Ninety-nine.”
Pooh nodded.
“I promise,” he said.
Still with his eyes on the world Christopher Robin put out a hand and felt for Pooh’s paw.
“Pooh,” said Christopher Robin earnestly, “if I—if I’m not quite” he stopped and tried again —”. Pooh, whatever happens, you will understand, won’t you?”
“Understand what?”
“Oh, nothing.” He laughed and jumped to his feet. “Come on!”
“Where?” said Pooh.
“Anywhere,” said Christopher Robin.
I had posted this thing once somewhere, I think I posted it here but I don't care. credits to fuckyeahpooh (but deleted) so goes to ilovepooh. and of course, A.A. Milne, who invented the silly old bear Winnie the Pooh.
I found some amazing things on the internet these few days. Oh geez, just check out my tumblr page! *promo*
Bonjour.
Feb 1
WOW look at the number of days. Lame shit. I changed it but the number is still that gigantic 267 days!
Help?
