Jan 3
what do you expect?
2009 was the worst, ever. EVER in my life (which is still too young to say this).
From the beginning of 2009: canceled plans, fights, worst new year ever, wasted, depressed, broke up, exams, failed exams, bad results, deaths, even more depressed, GCE O level exams, lost things...
Despite all the worst things happened, I found my treasures too, like friends! :D
I don't expect much on 2010. I don't like surprises. So here are my resolutions. Resolutions are like promises, some are meant to be broken.
"all endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at that time." - mitch albom.
1. Learn to accept reality and stop manipulating emotions.
sometimes I manipulate personality too.
2. Don't let myself be somebody's priority if they are only my option.
3. Make dreams happen, now.
Like solo exhibition, paint, become an astronaut. what else?
4. Stop apologising for things I didn't even do.
and things I didn't do wrong. 'Sorry' is not in my dictionary anymore.
5. Pray more.
When I know there's nobody I could talk to.
6. Earn money. Use it for something I crave for (and hopefully to buy something for my parents).
I want new lenses. Thats all.
7. Learn to drive, for goodness' sake.
I can't rely on my brother or parents. or friends. Nope.
8. Get into college and course I want.
Still haven't decide which college/uni I want to get into. Either Institut Kesenian Jakarta or go to Germany / Netherlands, I have to take national exam in Indonesia. I would go for Germany I guess. Free school fees and good education. Hmm. New environment too.
9. Finish reading Rara Mendut by Y.B. Mangunwijaya.
Mum said the language is quite difficult to understand and the book is THICK. Like.. Thick!
10. Get ID-card. DUH!
I don't really need anything right now. I just want more time for myself. Tee-hee!
